..saya bilang..kamu ga ada..kamu cuma bayangan maya tapi kamu menatap saya dari jauh..teduh..
..saya bilang..pergi..jangan ganggu saya lagi tapi kamu selalu kembali..mengisi..mengerti..
...saya bilang..cukup..saya lelah..terlalu lelah tapi kamu datang bercerita..tentang ilusi..tentang mimpi-mimpi..
..saya bilang..sudah dan kali ini saya benar-benar melangkah..
rainy jakarta, tuesday, 25.01.2005, 2:28:38 – 3:56:48 pm
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..my shadows the only one that walks beside me my shallow hearts the only thing that's beating sometimes i wish someone out there will find me 'till then i walk alone..
"malem minggu begini di rumah doang..garing ga sih?" Sender: I +6281530***2 Sent: 8-Jan-2005 20:40:15
"sama duoong..ik jg neeh..cuman besok gbtan dateng..deg2an deh niy;)eh jadi..marriednya kapan?" Delivered: I +6281530***2 Date and time: 8-Jan-2005 20:46:30
"jadi sept ini kira2, dateng yee..gbtan tolong dibawa serta;)" Sender: I +6281530***2 Sent: 8-Jan-2005 20:50:10
"yakin??dah manteb?" Delivered: I +6281530***2 Date and time: 8-Jan-2005 20:52:15
"well moga2 ya. sbenernya ada gbtan jg siy, cmn sm 'calon' gue ini rasanya lbh aman, he makes me smile when i'm sad & yg ptg dia tergila2 sama gue.doain aja" Sender: I +6281530***2 Sent: 8-Jan-2005 21:10:40
"wuduw gimana tuw?dah mau married msh ada gbtan jg?hehehe..moga2 lancar smua yak:)" Delivered: I +6281530***2 Date and time: 8-Jan-2005 21:15:03
"yaa itu tadi lah..sbnernya gue lbh syg sm gbtan gue, cm orgnya ga jls. mending sm cowo gue ini, at least gue lbh ngerasa pasti kedepannya" Sender: I +6281530***2 Sent: 8-Jan-2005 21:19:20
"envy deh gue sm lo, hari gini emang bagusnya nyari org yg bikin kita aman n jls arahnya kmn ya..ga kaya gue, crt gue tll kompleks:(..kpn2 aja gue critain..got to sleep, i think i'm growing old *sigh*" Delivered: I +6281530***2 Date and time: 8-Jan-2005 21:24:45
"ok dee.. moga2 cpt ktm yer mr.right;)..g'nite:)" Sender: I +6281530***2 Sent: 8-Jan-2005 21:26:20
"amieen..nite..tks:)" Delivered: I +6281530***2 Date and time: 8-Jan-2005 21:28:10
..the waiting game is over. no need for pretending. it's only getting stronger. the way i feel for you. i've got to find some way to tell you. though our world seems far apart. it just don't have to be. the time has come to testify. all the feelings i've been holding back. it's time to set them free. i've been watching you from the other side. i've been wanting to hold you through the night. i've got to find my way to the other side...
In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. There are persons who have some parts like me, but no one adds up exactly like me. Therefore, everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone chose it.
I own everything about me My body, including everything it does; My mind, including all its thoughts and ideas; My eyes, including the images of all they behold; My feelings, whatever they may be anger, joy, frustation, love, dissapointment, excitement; My mouth, and all the words that come out of it, polite, sweet or rough, correct or incorrect; My voice, loud or soft; and All my actions, whether they be to others or to myself.
I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own all my triumphs and successess, all my failures and mistakes. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know I can couragely and hopefully look for the solutions to the puzzles And for ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound, Whatever I say and do, Whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is me. This is authentic and represents where I am at that moment in time.
When I review later how I looked and sounded, What I said and did, How I thought and felt, some parts may turn out to be unfitting. I can ascand that which is unfitting, keep that which proved fitting, invent something new for that which I discarded.
I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I am me and I am okay..
..perasaan itu namanya jealous/cemburu/etc.. yg udah bikin saya haru biru merah item ga keruan hari ini mau tau gara2nya??.. temen deket tempat saya curhat slm ini ternyata flirting sama cowo yg selalu saya ceritain ke dia. rese! back stabber! kesel! sebel! :evil: