..for many years i've been trying. to believe and confide in. different people i found. some of them got closer than others. some wouldn't even bother. and then you came around. i didn't really know what to call you. you didn't know me at all. but i was happy to explain. i never really knew how to move you. so i tried to intrude through. the little holes in your veines. and i knew you. but that's not an invitation. you always seemed to know where to find me. and i'm still here behind you. in the corner of your eye. i never really learned how to love you. but i know that i love you. through the hole in the sky. where i see you. 'n' that's not an invitation. that's all i get. if this is communication. i disconnect. i've seen you. i know you but i don't know. how to connect. so i disconnect...

.communication.-the cardigans-

..turut berduka cita yang sedalam-dalamnya kepada para korban bom kuningan dan kepada Indonesia atas terjadinya tragedi ini..

..my deepest sympathy for the victim of Kuningan bomb..

.. it's the part of the dream that leaves me when the sunlight hits my eyes. it's the part of the dream that rolls me over and over as i sleep. it's the part of the dream that leaves me wanting for the darkness. it's the part of the dream i can't remember it at all. something about a big jet plane moving fast off into the sunset. maybe a mustang moving fast up to the sky. more like a great big boat drifting off to nowhere. i hope that in the end you were waiting on the other side ..

.last night i dreamed.-blues traveler-

Saya malu buat ngakuinnya, saya masih blom bisa lepas dari dia..

Banyak yg ngasih tau  saya untuk ‘bangun’ dari ‘mimpi2’ saya. Beribu2 kali udah saya coba utk ngelupain 'dia', tapi ga tau gimana selalu balik2nya saya kembali ke ‘dia’. Dari yg ‘dia’ tau2 ngubungin saya stlh saya udah mulai ngelupain dia, ato tiba2 ada ‘surprise’ yg ‘dia’ ciptain di diri saya. Waktu saya ketemu laki2 yg menarik hati, tiba2 dia ‘ada’, cuma sekedar ngasih tau kalo ‘dia’ masih ‘di sana’ untuk nemenin hari2 saya..Tapi buat apa? Bukannya mnrt 'dia', utk jadi suatu 'kami' buat saya dan 'dia' adalah salah 1 hal yg hampir mustahil diwujudin di dunia..

Tersiksa? Jelas..sepenuhnya..

Kadang saya ga habis pikir, kenapa ‘dia’ dan saya bisa begini..
Bagaimana mungkin orang seperti ‘dia’ yg begitu 'jauh' dan ‘asing’ bisa menyita hati dan pikiran saya segini besarnya..

Kapan saya bisa lepas dari ‘dia’?
Saya ga bisa jawab.. sejujurnya..