time for people to make resolutions.. mine?..umm..eventhough i always tend to follow the trend..but resolutions, promise, etc are something that i've tried to avoid..
anyway..my resolutions for 2008 then..hehehe 1. sholat subuh everyday 2. finish my thesis and graduate school 3. find my prince charming and get married 4. be a better person
i think that would make me busy during the year i hope i can keep all of them..;)
10.30 reached starbucks 10.45 hmm..there was a Columbia 10K on greene st.- street closed 11.00 they re-opened the street..great.. 11.10 waiting..(saw nextdoor neighbour..nodded..southern courtesy) 11.20 waiting..(a guy came..sh*t he brought a backpack full of books).. 11.30 waiting ..(a bunch of group taking a uni tour with some caddy cars..) 11.45 enuff..leave..
Have you ever felt something sparkle in your life, like your heart throbbing faster, got startled, can't focus on what you read, after you meet a certain someone? Aha..then it happens to me at this very moment..For no reason..have this silly stupido crash with a southern guy ..
It's nothing special with me (or even him) actually, but knowing that you still have that weird sensation is really a great thing. Been ages since the last time I had'em..
There are 18 letters in your name.
Those 18 letters total to 73
There are 7 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 1
The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.
The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.
The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.
Your Soul Urge number is: 9
A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.
You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.
As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.
wishes..wishes.. sholat subuh tiap hari sehat panjang umur cepet ketemu jodo banyak rejeki bahagia more ups than downs always see and think things positively..
Love can be so strange Don't it amaze you? Everytime you give yourself away It comes back to haunt you Love's an elusive charm and it can be painful To understand this crazy world But you're not gonna crack No you're never gonna crack
Life can be so cruel Don't it astound you? So when nothing seems too certain or safe Let it burn through you You can keep it pure on the inside And you know what you believe to be right So you're not gonna crack No you're never gonna crack
Run my baby run my baby run Run from the noise of the street and the loaded gun Too late for solutions to solve in the setting sun Find out who you are before you regret it Because life is so short, there's no time to waste it so run my baby run my baby run..
Secret heart What are you made of What are you so afraid of Could it be Three simple words Or the fear of being overheard What's wrong
Let em' in on your secret heart
Secret Heart Why so mysterious Why so sacred Why so serious Maybe you're Just acting tough Maybe you're just not man enough What's wrong
Let em' in on your secret heart
This very secret That you're trying to conceal Is the very same one That You're dying to reveal Go tell her how, how you feel
Secret heart come out and share it This loneliness, few can bear it Could it have something to do with Admitting that you just can't go through it alone?
Go out and share it This very secret heart .secret heart.-feist-
You may be depressed.
While you can be moody, your moods generally fall within the range of normal.
It's up to you to decide if you're depressed... or if you're simply having a bad week.
ada yang bilang semakin dewasa [baca: 'tua'] seorang lajang, kriteria untuk seseorang yang dicarinya untuk jadi pasangan hidupnya akan semakin simple, apa betul begitu? menurut saya ngga..
Ga percaya? ga usah jauh2, let's say saya deh salah satu contohnya.. waktu jaman-jamannya abg, kalo ditanya soal pengen cowo yg gimana siy? jawabannya complicated dengan sudut pandang yang simple, cakep kaya bintang A, B, C, yang seneng musik D, E, F, jago basket, pinter di kelas, rajin ngaji, aktif di ekskul sekolah..yaa ga jauh2 dari si boy lah.
Setelah umur mulai kepala 2, pertanyaan tetep sama, tapi jawaban untuk kriteria mulai dipersempit dan sudut pandang mulai agak maju ke depan,..yaa yang baik, sholeh, jujur, sayang sama saya dan saya sayang sama dia, punya prinsip, udah kerja tapi masih asik diajak nongkrong, ga kuper, suka nonton konser, orang yang ga bikin bosen walopun dah ngobrol sehari semalem..minimal hobbynya sama lah...hmmm ok...
Saat ini, waktu 'the one', ' my prince charming', 'mr right' [bukan mr. wright lho] blom juga jelas, pertanyaan tetep sama, cuma..jawabannya udah mule agak2 sederhana dan kok sudut pandangnya tambah complicated ya..masih tetep baik, sholeh, jujur, sayang sama saya, nyambung, bisa diterima sama keluarga saya, dan orang yang bisa saya lihat sebagai orang yang sama yang akan saya liat sepanjang hidup saya..
Waktu ada 1 orang temen cowo saya yang baik, sholeh, nyambung, akrab banget dengan keluarga saya, orang yang saya liat akan tetep jadi temen baik saya 10, 20, bahkan 50 tahun ke depan..kenapa saya ragu ya..kayanya faktor X itu ga ada.. apa siy faktor X itu? saya sendiri ga bisa jawab..mungkin hal-hal simple yang belum bisa saya terima yang saya takut akan jadi masalah di kedepannya, ato hal-hal lain yang mungkin lebih besar yang saya takutin..
jadi sebenernya kaya' apa yang saya cari? ternyata saat ini saya malah ngga bisa jawab.. terus terang..saya ngga tau..
There’s a somebody I’m longin’ to see I hope that he, turns out to be Someone who’ll watch over me
I’m a little lamb who’s lost in the wood I know I could, always be good To one who’ll watch over me
Although he may not be the man some Girls think of as handsome To my heart he carries the key
Won’t you tell him please to put on some speed Follow my lead, oh, how I need Someone to watch over me
I want to live where soul meets body, And let the sun wrap its arms around me, And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing, And feel what it's like to be new,
'Cause in my head there's a Greyhound station, Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations. So they may have a chance of finding a place where, They're far more suited than here.
I cannot guess what we'll discover, When we turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels, But I know our filthy hands can wash one another's, And not one speck will remain.
And I do believe it's true that there are roads left in both of our shoes, But if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too. So brown eyes I hold you near, 'cause you're the only song I want to hear A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere.
Where soul meets body.
.souls meets body.-death cab for cutie-
..it's not about who you are or what you look like, it's just the real you that matters most..
Lunglai - ganas karena bahagia dan sedih, indah dan gigih cinta kita di dunia yang fana. Nyawamu dan nyawaku dijodohkan langit, dan anak kita akan lahir di cakrawala. Ada pun mata kita akan terus bertatapan hingga berabad-abad lamanya.
Juwitaku yang cakap meskipun tanpa dandanan untukmu hidupku terbuka. Warna-warna kehidupan berpendar-pendar menakjubkan Isyarat-isyarat getaran ajaib menggerakkan penaku. Tanpa sekejap pun luput dari kenangan padamu aku bergerak menulis pamplet, mempertahankan kehidupan.
Jakarta, Kotabumi, 24 Maret 1978
note [buat komdan yg "katanya" progressif & radikal]: with all due respect..ma'af..tapi..i can not approve it..
wuaaa..udah tuwaaa niiiy.. tigapuluhdua taun..ckckck.. supposed to have 2 kids or even become the 'bu lurah' in some villages or become a wife of a wonderful guy..
tapi saya ngga mau dibilang ngga bersyukur alhamdulillah udah dapet pencapaian sejauh ini dikasih sehat dan rezeki kaya sekarang
boleh dong tapi..punya wishes.. namanya juga manusia hehe ngga muluk2 kok..standar malah.. sehat sholat subuh tiap hari ketemu cowo yang saya idam2kan and lives happily ever after banyak rezeki :)
selamet ya sash!!
cause the world is mine i won’t stop this time cause the world is mine and I’m feeling so divine.. .the world is mine.-hooverphonic-
For a while now, you've been biting your tongue about a controversial topic. Fear of confrontation is a common concern, but don't let this fear keep you from making your stance clear. If you keep holding back how you really feel, the feeling may die -- and it doesn't deserve that. Respect your emotions by sharing them. You know what you need to say to someone, so say it. After you do, you'll immediately feel liberated and more powerful than ever.
Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.
You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas. You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms. You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.
In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.
You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret. Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs. You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.
Peaceful and philosophical, you are almost always at harmony with the world. You're not very social, but you always enjoy a deep, complex conversation with a friend. It's possible that you've been disappointed a lot in your life, but you've gotten over those disappointments quickly. For you, each day is new and glorious. You wake up refreshed and happy, even when things aren't going your way.
Kalau Allah SWT berkehendak, dalam 1 menit pun manusia jadi ga ada artinya..
Jogja, Sabtu, 27.05.06, 05:50
Cuma dalam hitungan detik, kami sekeluarga lari keluar.. Tanah seperti dibanting-banting,.. dari luar..kami pandangi rumah..berharap semua tadi cuma mimpi Tapi anak2 kos menangis, tetangga2 menjerit.
Belum ada 15 menit, banyak kendaraan menderum-derum melewati depan rumah, kata mereka, air sudah sampai semata kaki di jalan solo…tsunami datang.. Kalau panik, kadang memang orang jadi ga logis..rumah saya 30 km dari pantai selatan dan 30 km dari puncak merapi.. Tiba2 mobile phone saya berbunyi, ada sms bilang, ‘karena gempa, awan panas dari merapi bertambah besar…’ serba salah jadinya..jogja terjepit di tengah-tengah..
Menjelang siang, kami orientasi ke sekitaran jogja… orang-orang menggelar tikar di depan rumah, di tempat lapang, di pinggir jalan.. ada tulisan..’jalan kusus rumah sakit’.. adik saya bilang..’kali ini jogja seperti Jakarta ya..bunyi sirene meraung dimana-mana. Bedanya, di Jakarta yang lewat orang yang [ngerasa] punya Negara, kalo disini yang lewat rakyat yang menderita..’
Sms bunyi lagi,..’keluarga gimana mba’? rumahku hancur, sebagian rata tanah..’ Subhanallah..
Tadinya banyak rencana sudah saya susun sebelum ke jogja, self indulging; beli buku, manjain orang tua & adik..tapi rencana tetap rencana… Orang tua bilang..’liburan kamu sekarang berkesan ya..siapa sangka akan ada gempa hari ini..’
Alhamdulillah..Saya dan keluarga ngga habis-habisnya bersyukur, kami masih diberi selamat, ada listrik, air dan makanan berkecukupan..
Jogja, minggu, 28.05.06
Pagi-pagi, sudah ada sms masuk, ‘lagi mau antre beras, tapi penuh dan harus pake ktp, bisa bantu logistic?’
Siangnya sepanjang menuju ‘ground zero’, tampak satu keluarga beriringan..sedihnya, 4 dari mereka buta Tulisan-tulisan ‘disini terima bantuan apa saja’, ‘posko bantuan’, ‘butuh bantuan, disini ada 68 kk’ terdapat di kanan kiri bahkan di tengah jalan.. Di radio diserukan ‘warga yang tidak berkepentingan, diharapkan tidak usah melalui jalan parangtritis’..tapi heran disana sini banyak orang berhenti dengan video cam pribadinya ..
Sampai malam ini, di selatan jogja, lampu belum menyala. Sejak sore, hujan mengguyur deras. Di luar sana, sebagian besar warga masih bermalam di bawah langit yang dilalui Hercules yang katanya ‘membawa bantuan mereka’. Tapi sampai saat ini juga..ada teman yang bilang belum ada bantuan dari pemerintah yang diterima
Di selatan jogja, malam ini, mereka masih menggigil, dengan lapar, air mata dan rasa was-was yang masih menghantui mereka.
Saya hanya bisa membantu semampu saya dan berdo’a semoga bencana ini sudah berakhir..
Hati saya bersama mereka…
sedikit catatan: untuk teman2 yang udah kirim sms.., terima kasih banyak, tesekkurlar, thank you so very much, matur sanged nuwun..
I love you whether or not you love me I love you even if you think that I don't Sometimes I find you doubt my love for you, but I don't mind Why should I mind, Why should I mind
Can anybody love anyone so much that they will never fear Never worry never be sad The answer is they cannot love this much nobody cant This is why I don't mind you doubting
And maybe love is letting people be just what they want to be The door always must be left unlocked To love when circumstance may lead someone away from you And not to spend the time just doubting
What is Love anyway, does anybody love anybody anyway
import lagi, walopun ga jauh2 siy.. [mungkin kata-kata ibu saya emang bener, seharusnya beliau berdo'a lebih spesifik, jadinya saya ga ketemu laki2 dari berbagai negara begini hehehe]
anyway..yang ke-III ini scorenya 8,5 the time was right, the person was nice..well overall i enjoyed every second of it
saya jadi keinget 'sharing' saya ke salah seorang sahabat cowo terdekat saya beberapa waktu sebelumnya dia bilang..jangan bawa emosi, it's all just a process to know people.. dia bilang lagi...it's the process to find what is your true basic principle on building a relationship
ada juga benernya apa yang dia bilang, walopun saya udah tau apa yang saya mau hehehe tapi emang..setelah beberapa kali blind date ini, emosi saya lama2 jadi berkurang. maksudnya, saya dah ga expect sesuatu yang lebih dari sekedar kenalan..
teruuss...saya ga sabar buat blind dating lagi niy.. ketemu orang baru, sifat baru, topik baru, keanehan2 baru hehehe..
jadi inget lagi kata2 terakhir temen saya sebelum kami berpisah.. kamu..ati2...and just be a professional blind dater !!!
okay.. so..i had another blind date! thought that i start to enjoy it hehehe kali ini, produk lokal, alias bangsa sendiri. dan sama yang ini, saya nyengir lebih lebar dari biasanya.. karena..sumpah..cowo yang satu ini anehnya bukan main. makanya kadang saya bisa ngerti kenapa cewe2 indonesia lebih milih untuk jalan sama cowo import [buat cowo2 indo yang baca postingan ini..ma'af..no offense loh].
pokoknya laki2 yang seri II bener2 ajaib. saya pikir mungkin dia lagi stress mungkin ya... gombalitynya buat saya nilainya 2,5 (itu juga score buat usaha dia ngomong dan keberanian doang hehehe *sadis amat saya yak*). walopun good looking tapi teuteuup...ga mempengaruhi score blind date-nya sendiri heheeh
minggu depan, bakal blind date lagi... waaa dah ngga sabar pengen tau gimana tipenya hihihihi..
i think i'm turning into a blindate freak huahaha...
There'll be times When my crimes Will seem almost unforgivable I give in to sin Because you have to make this life liveable But when you think I've had enough From your sea of love I'll take more than another riverfull Yes, and I'll make it all worthwhile I'll make your heart smile
Strangelove Strange highs and strange lows Strangelove That's how my love goes Strangelove Will you give it to me Will you take the pain I will give to you Again and again And will you return it
There'll be days When I'll stray I may appear to be Constantly out of reach I give in to sin Because I like to practise what I preach I'm not trying to say I'll have it all my way I'm always willing to learn When you've got something to teach And I'll make it all worthwhile I'll make your heart smile
You and your heart are going to sit down for a little heart-to-heart. Well, okay, maybe it's more accurate to call it a mind-to-heart. Or mind-and-body-to-heart. Whatever. You're going to ask your heart a few hard questions and then, if your heart wants to ask you some hard questions, it gets to. Then you have to answer (fair is fair!), and, ideally, by the end of the conversation you two will come to a whole new understanding.
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
